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Self-Inflicted Torture
December 6, 2007, 1:36 pm
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It’s the best kind of torture, the self-inflicted kind, and I’ll tell you why:

Because you could just say, “Screw this,” and be done with it. But nooo, because that would be quitting. And quitters never win. And winners never quit. They just implode one day while they’re in the middle of a rigourous not-quitting session. That will be me someday, just watch.

I hate exam time. It makes me look like the walking dead (probably because I pretty much am at this point). It makes me cranky and unlikeable, too. (Although, that could be Aunt Flo. If you get my… er… drift.)

I am getting sick of Organic Chemistry. It’s pretty much all I’ve looked at or done since Monday, minus work on Tuesday afternoon, and an interview for one of the campus newspapers yesterday. And I was here (one of the campus libraries) at 8.30 this morning, yet again, and I will be here til around 6.30 this evening, yet again. Why? Because I hate myself.

I hate myself so much that I took out an $8000 loan this year (and last!) to put myself through this torture, multiple times a year. Aren’t I smart?

It better be worth it in the end, because I am tired. Fall-down, exhausted, sleep-deprived tired.