It’s the best kind of torture, the self-inflicted kind, and I’ll tell you why:
Because you could just say, “Screw this,” and be done with it. But nooo, because that would be quitting. And quitters never win. And winners never quit. They just implode one day while they’re in the middle of a rigourous not-quitting session. That will be me someday, just watch.
I hate exam time. It makes me look like the walking dead (probably because I pretty much am at this point). It makes me cranky and unlikeable, too. (Although, that could be Aunt Flo. If you get my… er… drift.)
I am getting sick of Organic Chemistry. It’s pretty much all I’ve looked at or done since Monday, minus work on Tuesday afternoon, and an interview for one of the campus newspapers yesterday. And I was here (one of the campus libraries) at 8.30 this morning, yet again, and I will be here til around 6.30 this evening, yet again. Why? Because I hate myself.
I hate myself so much that I took out an $8000 loan this year (and last!) to put myself through this torture, multiple times a year. Aren’t I smart?
It better be worth it in the end, because I am tired. Fall-down, exhausted, sleep-deprived tired.
… Microbiology style. Because I am just that amazing. And have a lab exam tomorrow. Yay! Learn with me, folks! You know you want to!
No titles. Just haiku.
What can I say, folks, it caught up with me.
I have two finals this week, both for the same course (one’s the lab exam, the other’s the lecture exam). I have two in the two weeks following.
My birthday was Friday. I’m 20. Never again will I be a teenager. That’s not such a bad thing.
I’m not even going to try to finish this NaBloPoMo thing for November.
November’s a bad month for this sort of thing, what with finals so close and all. I think I’ll refrain from these November challenges ’til I’m done school.
So, I’ll be in my thirties… great…
I managed to get my Chemistry midterm mark back, and I certainly failed, but it’s not worth as much as I thought it was. Conclusion: if I study my butt off for the final, I may still be able to get a half-decent mark for the course – if I ace the final. I’m averaging about 59 right now, if I take both midterms and the first quiz into account, and work in an educated guess about what my lab grade is. When I get my quiz mark from Monday back, it will hopefully up my grade a little…
I think I’ve decided to double major with Anthropology, though. All my electives were going to go that route anyway, so I may as well. It will give me a chance to exercise a part of my brain that is seriously crying out for attention these days. I’m not a purely scientific person – far from it. Part of me is almost tempted to switch to Anthropology and Comparative Religion, and then maybe do something along the lines of archeology. Which would be awesome. But we’ll see what happens. I figure if I double-major the two, I will find out if I really like Anthropology enough to quit Micro. I think it might just go that route. But we will see.
In other news… I turn 20 on Friday. Frightening.
How can something repeat onwards? Isn’t repetition cyclic? Oh, well, I never claimed to make sense.
I realize I missed another day. Oh well. It was a long day, and I was tired. I had an appointment to get my hair cut in the morning – it looks great now! And then, I worked an eight-and-a-half hour shift, so by the time I got home and ate, I was pretty much at my quitting point.
The latest episode of Dexter has me acquiring Chopin in great numbers. Nocturne No. 2 in E Flat Major being my initial acquisition, obviously, due to its prominence in the episode. I’m kind of falling in love with him. There’s something about his music that speaks to the emo-kid in me.
And really, what self-respecting university student doesn’t have some good Chopin on her MP3 player?
Organic Chemistry, in the meantime, is ruining my academic career.
That is all!
Pushing the envelope today, aren’t I? I’ve come to the conclusion that I pretty much never have anything of interest to say, and posting every day certainly amplifies my awareness of that.
My birthday is in one week. I’m going to be twenty. How frightening.
I am exhausted, but that’s no surprise.
I get my hair cut/styled/whatever tomorrow, so that it actually looks half-decent for my birthday, yay! I also work an eight hour shift tomorrow, which really sucks, boo!
Um. I really don’t have much else to say.
How about that – I didn’t miss a day this time! What can I say – it’s been a hectic week!
Tonight, I plan to squeeze in some chemistry time before bed – even though the midterm is over, there is a quiz on Monday on the same material. YAY. JOY AND EXCITEMENT!
Um. I’m tired, I have lots to do, and My head’s exploding.
That’s all for today, folks.
(remember, NaBloPoMo is about quantity, not quality.)
I’m really not doing too great at this whole daily posting thing, am I? It’s a good thing I didn’t bother to attempt NaNoWriMo this year, I suppose.
I wrote my chemistry midterm this morning, and immediately afterwards, I felt like throwing up. It was pretty bad. There were multiple questions that quite seriously almost made me cry. I’m really not cut out for chemistry. Which is why I’m majoring in a biology subject. But they’re making me take chemistry anyway. Which makes me very, very sad.
I have a chemistry quiz on the same stuff on Monday. Woo. >.<
But! Good news is I got my genetics midterm mark, and I managed a B! Considering the last one was a C+, this is an improvement! Woo! I was one mark away from a B+, too, which drives me NUTS. It was probably a really easy question, too.
Now, I get to look forward to final exams! Woooooo!
I missed another day.
I’ll make up for it!
And this is how:
Giving you the opportunity to learn about what’s keeping me from my NaBloPoMo obligations!
Enjoy!
Ladies and Gentlemen, may I have your attention, please? I am requesting that the person who invented midnight madness sales please step forward.
So I can beat you.
Alright, so I like tax-free stuff. I bought two pairs of corduroy pants today (in red! and purple!) for only $19.95 each, with no tax to make me cringe! Just today! I’m wearing the red ones now, just because it has been forever and a day since I’ve owned a pair of cords. I love cords!
But to get back on topic. I worked nine and a half excruciating hours today. It was busy as something that’s really, really busy. And people asked a lot of stupid questions regarding the percentage off. And the hours… crept… by… so… slowly… and… people… irritate me… except for that one guy who started talking to me about wine tasting and whatnot. That was random, and kind of cool.
So! Tonight I watch “What the Bleep do We Know!?“, a film that my brother borrowed from the library and sounds really interesting. Science, interpreted in a rather unconventional (to most) way that, from what I’m told, sounds right up my alley.
Tomorrow I start studying for my organic chemistry exam. Monday I do the same thing, at least until around 2:30ish, because I have to work at 4:00. Until 9:30. And then I have to get up at 5:30am and go to school and we have a new prof for the last lecture block of my microbiology class.
I’m kind of excited about the opportunity to work in a lab this summer. The prof who replied to me already is Dr. Arunika Gunawardena, and her lab studies programmed cell death in lace plants. This could be a really cool opportunity. I’ll let you know what happens. 
